I want to run, I want to hide– U2
I want to tear down the walls that hold me inside
I wanna reach out and touch the flame
Where the streets have no name
I don’t know why but when I think of the duality of emotions I’m feeling currently, this song by U2 comes to mind.
“I want to run, I want to hide…”
I want to laugh, I want to cry, I want to scream with frustration, I want to sit with my eyes closed until this whole pandemic fades out.
It’s scary, this COVID-19, how far it’s travelled and how many people it’s affected. I must admit, I was one of those who thought it’d never get to this – businesses shutting down, people out of work, hospitals cancelling elective surgeries and out of masks and ventilators. But it has and it’s all a bit overwhelming at times.
So I’m here to tell you, in case you haven’t heard it yet, that it’s okay.
Everything you’re feeling is okay.
From sadness to joy, from anger to fear, from peace to frustration, from confusion to confidence. It’s ALL okay. Every. Single. Emotion. is okay to be feeling right now. These are times that no one in our lifetime has experienced. No one really knows what’s going to happen, nor does anyone truly know how to deal with it all. All we can really do is take it day-by-day and handle things the best way we know possible right now.
And sure, the best way possible is probably to stay home. Keep your social distance. Work from home if you can and only go to the stores if you absolutely need something.
We could all probably use a step-back, a cool-down, a moment to breathe and see which way the wind is blowing.
And don’t stress. Really, what good does it do? Remember these few things:
- There’s no way to have control over everything. The sooner you realize this, the smoother your days will go. Learn to let go of what you have no control over – in this case, trying to figure out when things will return to “normal”. Perhaps they will and perhaps they won’t. I’m thinking we’ll be left with a new normal but who really knows. Let go of any expectation of knowing the future. Trying to grasp that is like trying to grasp the wind.
- It’s okay to be feeling everything you’re feeling. If you’re happy, be happy, If you’re sad, be sad. If you’re angry, be angry. Don’t cover it up. Feel it and live it. Give it a name and let it speak. Now’s not the time to hide things. It’s the time to connect. I assure you, whatever you’re feeling right now, someone else is too. We’re all worried or sad. We’re all a little (or a lot) scared. Some of us may even be happy to be working in the comforts of our own home for a while. Don’t minimize your feelings. Simply feel them and acknowledge them.
- Make some delicious foods. Delight in being able to sit around your dinner table every night. Bake, if you like to. And play music! Music can be a great mood lifter. I, myself, love to play music while cooking or baking. I have this one friend who plays types of music to match whatever she’s making. If she’s cooking Italian, she plays music by Italian artists. If she’s baking a French dessert, she plays music of French cafes. It’s a brilliant idea, really. So I’ve adopted it for myself for some occasions! On others, I simply play whatever my soul needs to hear. You do the same. Feed your soul, physically and musically.
- Love on your furry babies (or feathered or scaly, whichever live with you). They feel your stress too and could use some extra hugs. If you don’t have pets but love animals just the same, donate your time or money to help animals in need during this time. With businesses shutting down in hopes of stopping the spread of the virus, many are draining funds to care for these animals. Find that charity close to your heart and help out. If we all do a little, we could all do a tremendous amount together.
- And don’t forget wine:) Take that moment at the end of the day and relax. Have a glass. Raise it high in honor of you, your family and friends, all you have done and are doing, and all of those around you doing so much. Cheers!
Some other things that are helping me right now are journaling, Susannah Conway’s #AprilLove2020 photo community on Instagram, Sarah Selecky’s Writing Through Uncertainty, books (lots of them!), and knowing I have a wonderful group of ladies waiting to gather for our first book club meeting sometime next month!
You’ll be okay. We’ll be okay.